Seeing The Unseen

๐—ฆ๐—ฒ๐—ฒ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ดย ๐—ง๐—ต๐—ฒย ๐—จ๐—ป๐˜€๐—ฒ๐—ฒ๐—ป Itโ€™s such a blessing and a curse.  The hard truth is when I look at a picture of my children, I instantly see the one that is missing.  It is my broken heart that sometimes has the 20/20 vision, while my regular eyesight takes a backseat. I see the unseen. I see the empty spaceContinue reading “Seeing The Unseen”

๐—ง๐—ต๐—ฒย ๐—™๐—น๐—ฎ๐˜ย ๐—Ÿ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ฒ

๐Ÿฐ/๐Ÿต/๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฌ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฌ ๐—ง๐—ต๐—ฒ ๐—™๐—น๐—ฎ๐˜ ๐—Ÿ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ฒ I saw the flat line.  It was a flat line that told me your heart was finally too tired to produce another beat.  An illuminated flat line had the ability to call the attention of dozens of people within seconds; my own eyes being the first and the last to acknowledge the magnitude of itsContinue reading “๐—ง๐—ต๐—ฒย ๐—™๐—น๐—ฎ๐˜ย ๐—Ÿ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ฒ”

โž‘ย ๐— ๐—ข๐—ก๐—ง๐—›๐—ฆ!

โซธย ๐•‹๐• ๐•กย ๐•‹๐•–๐•Ÿย ๐•‹๐•š๐••๐•“๐•š๐•ฅ๐•คย โซท โž™ 17 pounds 5 ounces โž™ 27.5 inches long โž™ only sits still for Mickey Mouse Clubhouse โž™ rather nibble on own feet vs. dinner  โž™ โ€œMr. Crazy Squawky Pantsโ€ โž™ hits fists on mouth to make funny sounds โž™ huge fan of peanut butter  โž™ loves when Mama sings โ€˜Open-Shut Themโ€™ โž™ย highly offended if binky is offeredย ย  โž™ย obsessed with banana puffsContinue reading “โž‘ย ๐— ๐—ข๐—ก๐—ง๐—›๐—ฆ!”

THEODORE NELSON BRINGS ‘CHD AWARENESS’ TO TELEVISION! ๐Ÿ“บ

Mama certainly prefers being ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ the camera verses in front of it… but Iโ€™d also climb to the top of Mount Everest if it meant sharing your story, Theodore… โ€˜CHD Awarenessโ€™ is now something I will be forever passionate about until the day I die, when I can hold my courageous heart warrior in myContinue reading “THEODORE NELSON BRINGS ‘CHD AWARENESS’ TO TELEVISION! ๐Ÿ“บ”

๐—ก๐—ข๐—ง โ€œ๐—ง๐—ช๐—ขโ€ ๐—™๐—”๐—ฅ ๐—”๐—ช๐—”๐—ฌ…๐ŸŽ‚

Oh Theodore, you wouldโ€™ve been TWO today…ย  I remember this moment…ย  I remember being so thrilled that you were โ€œcomfortableโ€ enough on this particular day to lay โ€˜chest to chestโ€™ with mommy; feeling your chest rise and fall with each breath against mine was well worth recruiting someone to help coordinate the process of delicatelyContinue reading “๐—ก๐—ข๐—ง โ€œ๐—ง๐—ช๐—ขโ€ ๐—™๐—”๐—ฅ ๐—”๐—ช๐—”๐—ฌ…๐ŸŽ‚”

…It all begins and end with a kiss ๐Ÿ’‹

Think about it. The first instinct a father has when holding their precious baby is to kiss their cheek… because what feels better than fresh newborn skin pressed against your lips when no words seem significant enough to properly represent your overwhelming amount of love? Those same fathers eventually experience earthly departures, yet that sameContinue reading “…It all begins and end with a kiss ๐Ÿ’‹”

1 Year In Heaven…๐Ÿ‘ผ

Tomorrow, April 9, 2020 – My heart broke the same day yours was made whole… And although I miss you more with every beat of my broken heart, Iโ€™d gladly give-up a piece of my heart, to know that God has replaced the missing piece of yours… I hope you know how absolutely, incredibly PERFECTContinue reading “1 Year In Heaven…๐Ÿ‘ผ”

ALIVE IN THE SHADOWS

Happy 1st Birthday, my sweet Theodore. Mommy wanted to do something extra special to honor your beautiful soul; an eternal soul that is still very much alive.  From the day you were born, it was always your soul that touched me more than your body. Even on your birthday, they whisked you away for the first openContinue reading “ALIVE IN THE SHADOWS”

CHEEK TO CHEEK

That is how it should still be… your pudgy little cheek pressed up against mine; your wispy blonde hairs tickling my temple as I press in closer and closer to you. Some mornings when itโ€™s extra hard to catch my breath, I even find myself taking the back of my hand and pressing it upContinue reading “CHEEK TO CHEEK”

DADDY’S ARMS

Little did I know that this would be your last picture with Theodore. And the more I stare at it, the more I realize how this final moment with your son perfectly summarized your entire relationship. Theodore always felt safe in his daddy’s arms. And you, Michael Nelson, are the pillar of strength for ourContinue reading “DADDY’S ARMS”