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  • 6 MONTHS GONE

    October 9, 2020 by

    Hi Theodore,Momma here…Today, marks 6 months.Half a year since I’ve looked into those fierce eyes.I have nothing profound to say,besides “I love you more than life itself”. Thank you for filling my arms for 223 days.It’s your strength that has quite literally become mine.Just one thought of your courage empowers me to do absolutely anything.And it… Read more

  • IMPRINTS 👣🤚🏼

    September 14, 2020 by

    Happy Birthday, Michael! Although we never have a shortage of family ‘selfies’, it was these two very separate and distinct monumental moments that pulled at my heartstrings while I was browsing for a picture that best depicted YOU.  It was reflecting on these two emotional days of saying ‘hello’ to our daughter and ‘goodbye’ to… Read more

  • ALIVE IN THE SHADOWS

    August 30, 2020 by

    Happy 1st Birthday, my sweet Theodore. Mommy wanted to do something extra special to honor your beautiful soul; an eternal soul that is still very much alive.  From the day you were born, it was always your soul that touched me more than your body. Even on your birthday, they whisked you away for the first open… Read more

  • WE LOCKED EYES

    July 29, 2020 by

    The church doors opened, and all I saw was you. Not the friends and family gleaming on either side of the aisle, or even the photographer following us with flashing lights could distract me from your eyes. I felt my Dad’s strong grip around my arm, but it was your misty eyes that remained my… Read more

  • CHEEK TO CHEEK

    July 10, 2020 by

    That is how it should still be… your pudgy little cheek pressed up against mine; your wispy blonde hairs tickling my temple as I press in closer and closer to you. Some mornings when it’s extra hard to catch my breath, I even find myself taking the back of my hand and pressing it up… Read more

  • DADDY’S ARMS

    June 22, 2020 by

    Little did I know that this would be your last picture with Theodore. And the more I stare at it, the more I realize how this final moment with your son perfectly summarized your entire relationship. Theodore always felt safe in his daddy’s arms. And you, Michael Nelson, are the pillar of strength for our… Read more

  • FREEZE!

    June 17, 2020 by

    ️Here is my favorite ‘brunette Elsa’, who happens to be much better at ‘melting hearts’ than freezing them…  HAPPY 5TH BIRTHDAY, MacKenna! Mom & Dad could not be more proud to call you our daughter. You became a big sister, and lost your baby brother all in the same year. Your delicate little heart has… Read more

  • FORTIFIED. 🥛

    June 5, 2020 by

    All 1,248 ounces were fortified with an extremely large dose of love… When you fortify, you add an element of ‘value’ to something that could benefit from being strengthened.  And there’s no doubt that Theodore Nelson was born a ‘fortifier’; his tenacity could invigorate anyone and enhance their lives for the better.  He was a… Read more

  • •• REALITY ••

    May 22, 2020 by

    MK insisted on taking her little brother for a drive today. Never in my wildest dreams did I think ‘playtime’ would look like this… but ‘this’ is our reality. And that’s the thing about ‘reality’ – you can’t hide from it. You can either run from reality, or choose to accept it. Although, trying to… Read more

  • TURNING PAIN INTO PURPOSE 👇

    May 9, 2020 by

    It has been one month since I’ve held my beautiful baby boy… and within those painful 30 days, besides feeling every single emotion known to man, coupled with periods of complete numbness, I’ve realized this:  it’s not about “learning to get over it”, it’s about “learning to live through it”… and for me, that includes… Read more

  • Surprise Tribute From Community Honoring Theodore R. Nelson

    April 17, 2020 by

    This global pandemic has got nothin’ on the ‘Teddy Bear Warrior’ community! I’m still speechless from this complete SURPRISE… & I’m still having a very hard time formulating sentences to express what is in my heart; my heart is simply in overload… My heart misses Theodore like crazy.My heart loves you all like crazy. So,… Read more

  • LOVE IS ETERNAL ❤️

    April 11, 2020 by

    My beautiful Theodore; my precious Teddy Bear, my strong and courageous Warrior, my brave and fierce Baby Boy – Momma will always love you with every fiber of my being and every ounce of my soul. If love could have kept you here, it would have kept you here one thousand years… but I’ll give… Read more

  • 3/24/20 -OPEN HEART SURGERY #3

    March 24, 2020 by

    Today we switch lanes on the hi-way.  We’re entering a whole new phase of this journey with Theodore; I just pray that we’re veering into the ‘express lane’ with a straight shot home from here… Although, the next leg of this trip hasn’t yet begun, this Momma is already feeling a little “car sick”.  Traveling… Read more

  • 🎉❗️200 DAYS IN THE CICU❗️🎉

    March 21, 2020 by

    Our ‘Mr. Theodorable’ turned 200 days old this past Tuesday and still continues to fight hard for life with every determined breath he takes! (…not to mention, he makes me smile about 200 times per day, too! ) I have learned a lot in 200 days… I have learned that one person’s ‘inconvenience’ can be another… Read more

  • KEEP CALM AND LET THE STORM RAGE ON… 💪

    March 14, 2020 by

    “… The ‘unknown’ never bothered me anyway! “ ” ‘Cause don’t you know there’s part of me that lovvvess to gooo… into the UNKNOWNNN! “ I’ve obviously been exposed to Elsa songs way too much lately; thanks MacKenna!  🤣 …But in all seriousness, the declared national emergency has brought about a whole new extra set of ‘unknowns’… Read more

  • HALF A YEAR WITH HALF A HEART ❤️

    March 2, 2020 by

    Our ‘Mr. Theodorable’ is 6 months old and able to turn anything from ordinary to extraordinary‼️… Working towards traditional developmental milestones with ‘half a heart’ is like climbing Mount Everest against every unfavorable condition that exists.  When Theodore first smiled  before his six month birthday, we reached the highest peak and claimed victory! I jumped… Read more

  • HIS STORY 📖

    February 27, 2020 by

    Who doesn’t love a good drama? …Perhaps one with a juicy plot twist filled with new characters and unexpected events? …But what happens when the screen goes black and the white block lettering emerges: “to be continued…”?  And better yet, how do you feel when it’s YOU staring as the main conflicted character? I was… Read more

  • 🖐🏼 MONTHS

    January 31, 2020 by

    HAPPY FIVE MONTHS, my sweet Teddy Bear.  You have overcome more in five months than most people do in a lifetime.  When I look at you, I see the ‘fierce’ in your twinkling eyes… I see the ‘determination’ in your pursed lips. I see the ‘courage’ in your healing scars. But most of all, I… Read more

  • I AM THE PASSENGER 🚗

    January 18, 2020 by

    Is anyone guilty of being a “backseat driver”?   Michael and I are about to depart on trip number 18 down to Pittsburgh; if you are counting “there and back”, that’s actually 36 different 4-hour windows of time where I’ve had the opportunity to be ‘that someone’ who provides unwanted driving advice… We’ve all commented at… Read more

  • NO CRIB FOR A BED 🛏

    December 30, 2019 by

    This holiday season has been exceptionally hard. The normal stress that is induced by trying to purchase perfect gifts for practically every person you know, chasing down local Santas for one quick picture, and decorating the house just enough to foster a ‘magical environment’ for your child was exponentially multiplied by more serious factors that… Read more

  • LEFTOVERS 🍗

    December 2, 2019 by

    Who doesn’t love leftovers? Some would even argue that the best part of Thanksgiving is the leftovers… Everyone looks forward to them; they lighten the burden of future meal preparation and can instantly turn lunch hour into “happy hour” at work!  Nothing beats the convenience of tossing a previously well-cooked meal into the microwave for a few… Read more

  • LOVE GROWS. 🌱

    November 18, 2019 by

    Do you know how much I love this precious little child of God?  I have been smoochin’ his precious little cheeks through many scary transitions over the past five days.  I could not be more proud of my Theodore and how far he has come thanks to his incredibly strong will to fight! He has… Read more

  • OPEN HEART SURGERY #2

    November 13, 2019 by

    Twas’ the night before surgery… when all through Mom’s mind, many thoughts were stirring, none two of a kind…  Sometimes it feels like I am drowning in my own thoughts; so many thoughts, like millions of water droplets compiling together, creating one big raging sea.  In the midst of negative speculations and unfavorable odds, I… Read more

  • WAITING FOR OUR RAINBOW…🌈

    November 10, 2019 by

    If I’ve learned anything through this journey, it’s the fragility of life. These pictures are only a week old, yet our current situation depicts nothing close to the care-free playfulness of silly unicorns and an adorable rainbow… But anyone who knows our daughter MacKenna, knows very well that ‘unicorns’ are her current obsession.  And anyone who… Read more

  • YOU & ME TOGETHER, WE CAN DO ANYTHING…

    October 30, 2019 by

    Yesterday marked 14 years together; 7 of which we’ve been married!  October 28th has always held a special place in my heart because it was the day where it all began.  Our wedding anniversary on July 28th would not exist if we didn’t take the chance on each other 14 years ago on October 28th!  So in… Read more

  • “DON’T GET YOUR HOPES UP”

    October 26, 2019 by

    This statement is dangerous.  I’ve been on both ends of it; I’ve personally said: “I’m not getting my hopes up“, and I’ve told others: “don’t get your hopes up!“.  But who am I to steal someone’s hope?  Better yet, why would I want to rob myself of hope? Hope is the confident expectation of what God has… Read more

  • TRADING SPACES

    October 20, 2019 by

    …FOR NOW This is what our “family time” looks like nowadays.  We’ve been forced to trade the comforts of our own home for a space that feels cold and unfamiliar.  Instead of the television mounted above our cozy fireplace, it now sits over a red biomedical waste container.  Instead of coloring with MacKenna at our… Read more

  • 💯DAYS!

    December 9, 2019 by

    We’ve officially hit “triple digits”… 100 DAYS IN PITTSBURGH’S CARDIAC INTENSIVE CARE UNIT‼️ Grateful for how far we’ve come… Hopeful for how far we’ll go… -️ Momma Bear, Praying Isaiah 53:5  #FallingRightSideUp TEDDY BEAR PRAYER : Sometimes my heart is quiet…and that’s okay.  Sometimes the prayers that carry the fewest words are the most powerful. God knows our… Read more

  • THEODORE HAS A MIDDLE NAME

    October 10, 2019 by

    October 10th is a special day.           It’s the day our ‘strong leader’ was born. This leader goes by the name ‘Richard’; and is otherwise known as ‘Dad’ or ‘Papa’. He is a strong leader because he is a quiet leader.  My Dad knows more than he says, and thinks more than he speaks. He… Read more

  • I RAISE THE WHITE FLAG 🏳️

    October 8, 2019 by

    I “raised the white flag” somewhere between finding out that my newborn’s open heart surgery was underway the day he was born, and now over a month later- driving 234 hundred miles again, on our fifth road trip to visit him in his CICU room.  I “raised the white flag”, most certainly not claiming ‘defeat’, but… Read more

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