You Better Not Pout, You Better Not Cry… ๐ŸŽ…๐Ÿผ

โ€œYou better not pout, you better not cry, you better not shoutโ€ฆโ€ ย โ€ฆ scratch that, because actually, sometimes itโ€™s okay! Youโ€™d be wearing your 3T Christmas Tree Sweater that matches perfectly with MacKenna and Arthur.  I imagine you in a brand new phase of โ€˜fascination with Santaโ€™, showing your little brother that heโ€™s really notContinue reading “You Better Not Pout, You Better Not Cry… ๐ŸŽ…๐Ÿผ”

Theodore’s 3rd Birthday in Heaven๐ŸŽˆ

August 30, 2019 It was the day that you, my breathtakingly beautiful baby, redefined the meaning of my entire life. It was a day that your perfect self entered our world through so many imperfect adversities. And still, somehow, Mama finds it more difficult to manage the raw emotion surrounding the day that you enteredContinue reading “Theodore’s 3rd Birthday in Heaven๐ŸŽˆ”

Seeing The Unseen

๐—ฆ๐—ฒ๐—ฒ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ดย ๐—ง๐—ต๐—ฒย ๐—จ๐—ป๐˜€๐—ฒ๐—ฒ๐—ป Itโ€™s such a blessing and a curse.  The hard truth is when I look at a picture of my children, I instantly see the one that is missing.  It is my broken heart that sometimes has the 20/20 vision, while my regular eyesight takes a backseat. I see the unseen. I see the empty spaceContinue reading “Seeing The Unseen”

๐—ง๐—ต๐—ฒย ๐—™๐—น๐—ฎ๐˜ย ๐—Ÿ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ฒ

๐Ÿฐ/๐Ÿต/๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฌ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฌ ๐—ง๐—ต๐—ฒ ๐—™๐—น๐—ฎ๐˜ ๐—Ÿ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ฒ I saw the flat line.  It was a flat line that told me your heart was finally too tired to produce another beat.  An illuminated flat line had the ability to call the attention of dozens of people within seconds; my own eyes being the first and the last to acknowledge the magnitude of itsContinue reading “๐—ง๐—ต๐—ฒย ๐—™๐—น๐—ฎ๐˜ย ๐—Ÿ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ฒ”

โž‘ย ๐— ๐—ข๐—ก๐—ง๐—›๐—ฆ!

โซธย ๐•‹๐• ๐•กย ๐•‹๐•–๐•Ÿย ๐•‹๐•š๐••๐•“๐•š๐•ฅ๐•คย โซท โž™ 17 pounds 5 ounces โž™ 27.5 inches long โž™ only sits still for Mickey Mouse Clubhouse โž™ rather nibble on own feet vs. dinner  โž™ โ€œMr. Crazy Squawky Pantsโ€ โž™ hits fists on mouth to make funny sounds โž™ huge fan of peanut butter  โž™ loves when Mama sings โ€˜Open-Shut Themโ€™ โž™ย highly offended if binky is offeredย ย  โž™ย obsessed with banana puffsContinue reading “โž‘ย ๐— ๐—ข๐—ก๐—ง๐—›๐—ฆ!”

ARTHUR IS โž MONTHS!

โซธ ๐•‹๐• ๐•ก ๐•‹๐•–๐•Ÿ ๐•‹๐•š๐••๐•“๐•š๐•ฅ๐•ค โซท โž™ 16 pounds 11 ounces โž™ 27.5 inches long โž™ two cute bottom front teeth โž™ somehow acquired nickname: โ€˜Moo Mooโ€™ โž™ โ€œMr. Loves To Shoutโ€-not just for the Bills โž™ boycotts sleep whenever possible โž™ not a fan of peas and green beans โž™ loves music; especially Big SisContinue reading “ARTHUR IS โž MONTHS!”

๐—”๐—ฅ๐—ง๐—›๐—จ๐—ฅ ๐—œ๐—ฆ โž ๐— ๐—ข๐—ก๐—ง๐—›๐—ฆ!

โซธ ๐•‹๐• ๐•ก ๐•‹๐•–๐•Ÿ ๐•‹๐•š๐••๐•“๐•š๐•ฅ๐•ค โซทโ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โž™ 16 pounds 1 ounceโž™ 26.25 inches longโž™ rosey cheeks; poor teething babeโž™ sits-up unassisted for a few minutesโž™ โ€œMr. Handsome Hot Temperโ€โž™ wakes up 1-2 times a night for a snackย โž™ devours all of Mamaโ€™s homemade purรฉesโž™ favs: snowy walks & blowing raspberriesย  ย โž™ refuses the bottle and demands Mamaโž™Continue reading “๐—”๐—ฅ๐—ง๐—›๐—จ๐—ฅ ๐—œ๐—ฆ โž ๐— ๐—ข๐—ก๐—ง๐—›๐—ฆ!”

๐—”๐—ฅ๐—ง๐—›๐—จ๐—ฅ ๐—œ๐—ฆ โž ๐— ๐—ข๐—ก๐—ง๐—›๐—ฆ!

โซธ ๐•‹๐• ๐•ก ๐•‹๐•–๐•Ÿ ๐•‹๐•š๐••๐•“๐•š๐•ฅ๐•ค โซทโ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โž™ 14 poundsโž™ 24.5 inches longโž™ officially part of the โ€œrolling clubโ€โž™ superhero Jack-Jack for Halloweenโž™ โ€œMr. I Donโ€™t Like Sleep Anymoreโ€โž™ enjoyed 1st time on the swing at the parkโž™ wakes up every 2-4 hours overnight againโž™ loves to watch Big Sis dance and play pianoโž™ cracks up at Dadโ€™sContinue reading “๐—”๐—ฅ๐—ง๐—›๐—จ๐—ฅ ๐—œ๐—ฆ โž ๐— ๐—ข๐—ก๐—ง๐—›๐—ฆ!”

ARTHUR IS 2 MONTHS!

โซธย ๐•‹๐• ๐•กย ๐•‹๐•–๐•Ÿย ๐•‹๐•š๐••๐•“๐•š๐•ฅ๐•คย โซท โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€” โž™ 11 pounds, 13 ounces  โž™ 22.25 inches long โž™ gives the most adorable genuine smiles  โž™ loves to have babbling conversations โž™ โ€œSmiley Spitter-Upperโ€  โž™ completed a 7-hour road-trip vacation โž™ sleeps 6-8 hour stretches at night โž™ favorites: blue binky & finger nibbling  โž™ enjoys long warm baths with Mama โž™ prefers lullabies over white noise  โซธ ๐•„๐•’๐•ž๐•’โ€™๐•ค ๐•„๐• ๐•ค๐•ฅ ๐•„๐•’๐•ฃ๐•ง๐•–๐•๐• ๐•ฆ๐•ค ๐•„๐• ๐•ž๐•–๐•Ÿ๐•ฅ โซท โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€” Contrary to timeContinue reading “ARTHUR IS 2 MONTHS!”

๐—ก๐—ข๐—ง โ€œ๐—ง๐—ช๐—ขโ€ ๐—™๐—”๐—ฅ ๐—”๐—ช๐—”๐—ฌ…๐ŸŽ‚

Oh Theodore, you wouldโ€™ve been TWO today…ย  I remember this moment…ย  I remember being so thrilled that you were โ€œcomfortableโ€ enough on this particular day to lay โ€˜chest to chestโ€™ with mommy; feeling your chest rise and fall with each breath against mine was well worth recruiting someone to help coordinate the process of delicatelyContinue reading “๐—ก๐—ข๐—ง โ€œ๐—ง๐—ช๐—ขโ€ ๐—™๐—”๐—ฅ ๐—”๐—ช๐—”๐—ฌ…๐ŸŽ‚”