Family Of Five ๐Ÿ–๐Ÿผ

๐Ž๐ง๐žย ๐ฉ๐ž๐ซ๐Ÿ๐ž๐œ๐ญย ๐ ๐ข๐Ÿ๐ญย ๐ญ๐ก๐š๐ญย ๐ฐ๐š๐ฅ๐ค๐ฌย ๐›๐ž๐ฌ๐ข๐๐žย ๐ฆ๐ž… ๐Ž๐ง๐žย ๐ฉ๐ž๐ซ๐Ÿ๐ž๐œ๐ญย ๐ ๐ข๐Ÿ๐ญย ๐š๐›๐จ๐ฏ๐žย ๐ญ๐จย ๐ ๐ฎ๐ข๐๐žย ๐ฆ๐ž… ๐Ž๐ง๐žย ๐ฉ๐ž๐ซ๐Ÿ๐ž๐œ๐ญย ๐ ๐ข๐Ÿ๐ญย ๐ง๐จ๐ฐย ๐ ๐ซ๐จ๐ฐ๐ฌย ๐ข๐ง๐ฌ๐ข๐๐žย ๐ฆ๐ž…ย  Dear Theodore-ย  The gift of your life has brought immeasurable joy, even through the darkest days. The gift of your life has drawn us closer to God, as weโ€™ve realized our own lack of control. The gift of your life has indicated that prayer does not always change circumstances, but it certainlyContinue reading “Family Of Five ๐Ÿ–๐Ÿผ”

1 Year In Heaven…๐Ÿ‘ผ

Tomorrow, April 9, 2020 – My heart broke the same day yours was made whole… And although I miss you more with every beat of my broken heart, Iโ€™d gladly give-up a piece of my heart, to know that God has replaced the missing piece of yours… I hope you know how absolutely, incredibly PERFECTContinue reading “1 Year In Heaven…๐Ÿ‘ผ”

6 MONTHS GONE

Hi Theodore,Momma here…Today, marks 6 months.Half a year since I’ve looked into those fierce eyes.I have nothing profound to say,besides “I love you more than life itself”.ย Thank you for filling my arms for 223 days.It’s your strength that has quite literally become mine.Just one thought of your courage empowers me to do absolutely anything.And itContinue reading “6 MONTHS GONE”

ALIVE IN THE SHADOWS

Happy 1st Birthday, my sweet Theodore. Mommy wanted to do something extra special to honor your beautiful soul; an eternal soul that is still very much alive.  From the day you were born, it was always your soul that touched me more than your body. Even on your birthday, they whisked you away for the first openContinue reading “ALIVE IN THE SHADOWS”

WE LOCKED EYES

The church doors opened, and all I saw was you. Not the friends and family gleaming on either side of the aisle, or even the photographer following us with flashing lights could distract me from your eyes. I felt my Dadโ€™s strong grip around my arm, but it was your misty eyes that remained myContinue reading “WE LOCKED EYES”

CHEEK TO CHEEK

That is how it should still be… your pudgy little cheek pressed up against mine; your wispy blonde hairs tickling my temple as I press in closer and closer to you. Some mornings when itโ€™s extra hard to catch my breath, I even find myself taking the back of my hand and pressing it upContinue reading “CHEEK TO CHEEK”

FORTIFIED. ๐Ÿฅ›

All 1,248 ounces were fortified with an extremely large dose of love… When you fortify, you add an element of โ€˜valueโ€™ to something that could benefit from being strengthened.  And thereโ€™s no doubt that Theodore Nelson was born a โ€˜fortifierโ€™; his tenacity could invigorate anyone and enhance their lives for the better.  He was aContinue reading “FORTIFIED. ๐Ÿฅ›”

โ€ขโ€ข REALITY โ€ขโ€ข

MK insisted on taking her little brother for a drive today. Never in my wildest dreams did I think โ€˜playtimeโ€™ would look like this… but โ€˜thisโ€™ is our reality. And thatโ€™s the thing about โ€˜realityโ€™ – you canโ€™t hide from it. You can either run from reality, or choose to accept it. Although, trying toContinue reading “โ€ขโ€ข REALITY โ€ขโ€ข”

TURNING PAIN INTO PURPOSE ๐Ÿ‘‡

It has been one month since Iโ€™ve held my beautiful baby boy… and within those painful 30 days, besides feeling every single emotion known to man, coupled with periods of complete numbness, Iโ€™ve realized this:ย  itโ€™s not about โ€œlearning to get over itโ€, itโ€™s about โ€œlearning to live through itโ€… and for me, that includesContinue reading “TURNING PAIN INTO PURPOSE ๐Ÿ‘‡”