August 30, 2019 It was the day that you, my breathtakingly beautiful baby, redefined the meaning of my entire life. It was a day that your perfect self entered our world through so many imperfect adversities. And still, somehow, Mama finds it more difficult to manage the raw emotion surrounding the day that you enteredContinue reading “Theodore’s 3rd Birthday in Heaven๐”
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Seeing The Unseen
๐ฆ๐ฒ๐ฒ๐ถ๐ป๐ดย ๐ง๐ต๐ฒย ๐จ๐ป๐๐ฒ๐ฒ๐ป Itโs such a blessing and a curse. The hard truth is when I look at a picture of my children, I instantly see the one that is missing. It is my broken heart that sometimes has the 20/20 vision, while my regular eyesight takes a backseat. I see the unseen. I see the empty spaceContinue reading “Seeing The Unseen”
๐ง๐ต๐ฒย ๐๐น๐ฎ๐ย ๐๐ถ๐ป๐ฒ
๐ฐ/๐ต/๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ฎ๐ฌ ๐ง๐ต๐ฒ ๐๐น๐ฎ๐ ๐๐ถ๐ป๐ฒ I saw the flat line. It was a flat line that told me your heart was finally too tired to produce another beat. An illuminated flat line had the ability to call the attention of dozens of people within seconds; my own eyes being the first and the last to acknowledge the magnitude of itsContinue reading “๐ง๐ต๐ฒย ๐๐น๐ฎ๐ย ๐๐ถ๐ป๐ฒ”
โย ๐ ๐ข๐ก๐ง๐๐ฆ!
โซธย ๐๐ ๐กย ๐๐๐ย ๐๐๐๐๐๐ฅ๐คย โซท โ 17 pounds 5 ounces โ 27.5 inches long โ only sits still for Mickey Mouse Clubhouse โ rather nibble on own feet vs. dinner โ โMr. Crazy Squawky Pantsโ โ hits fists on mouth to make funny sounds โ huge fan of peanut butter โ loves when Mama sings โOpen-Shut Themโ โย highly offended if binky is offeredย ย โย obsessed with banana puffsContinue reading “โย ๐ ๐ข๐ก๐ง๐๐ฆ!”
โ223 Reminiscent Daysโ with โmy boy(s)โ…
Today, you outlive your brother. Which means: 223 days of loving you… 223 days of studying your eyes; I fixate on the faint gold ring around your dark pupil and how it dissolves into a large mass of deep crystal blue. 223 days of kissing your head; I lean in with pursed lips, simultaneously inhalingContinue reading “โ223 Reminiscent Daysโ with โmy boy(s)โ…”
THEODORE NELSON BRINGS ‘CHD AWARENESS’ TO TELEVISION! ๐บ
Mama certainly prefers being ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฅ the camera verses in front of it… but Iโd also climb to the top of Mount Everest if it meant sharing your story, Theodore… โCHD Awarenessโ is now something I will be forever passionate about until the day I die, when I can hold my courageous heart warrior in myContinue reading “THEODORE NELSON BRINGS ‘CHD AWARENESS’ TO TELEVISION! ๐บ”
โค โ โค
Hereโsย ๐ย of myย ๐ย little Valentines that will forever occupy their own little spaces in my heart. Theodore has taught me that our hearts are cool like that… what the eyes can no longer see, the heart will always remember.ย ย And even though my heart feels very empty with one Valentine gone, the perfectly portioned sections specially reserved forContinue reading “โค โ โค”
๐๐ฅ๐ง๐๐จ๐ฅ ๐๐ฆ โ ๐ ๐ข๐ก๐ง๐๐ฆ!
โซธ ๐๐ ๐ก ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ฅ๐ค โซทโโโโโโโโโโ 16 pounds 1 ounceโ 26.25 inches longโ rosey cheeks; poor teething babeโ sits-up unassisted for a few minutesโ โMr. Handsome Hot Temperโโ wakes up 1-2 times a night for a snackย โ devours all of Mamaโs homemade purรฉesโ favs: snowy walks & blowing raspberriesย ย โ refuses the bottle and demands MamaโContinue reading “๐๐ฅ๐ง๐๐จ๐ฅ ๐๐ฆ โ ๐ ๐ข๐ก๐ง๐๐ฆ!”
๐ก๐ข๐ง โ๐ง๐ช๐ขโ ๐๐๐ฅ ๐๐ช๐๐ฌ…๐
Oh Theodore, you wouldโve been TWO today…ย I remember this moment…ย I remember being so thrilled that you were โcomfortableโ enough on this particular day to lay โchest to chestโ with mommy; feeling your chest rise and fall with each breath against mine was well worth recruiting someone to help coordinate the process of delicatelyContinue reading “๐ก๐ข๐ง โ๐ง๐ช๐ขโ ๐๐๐ฅ ๐๐ช๐๐ฌ…๐”
โก๏ธWONDER WOMAN IS 6โก๏ธ
I laughed when this little โsuperheroโ requested a โWonder Woman Birthdayโ because prior to last month, the words were never even in her vocabulary… Ironically, her โsilly thoughtโ quickly evolved to a very โappropriate suggestionโ, as I soon began to realize that MacKenna casted herself for the perfect role… I think back over the pastContinue reading “โก๏ธWONDER WOMAN IS 6โก๏ธ”
FALLING RIGHT SIDE UP 