โž‘ย ๐— ๐—ข๐—ก๐—ง๐—›๐—ฆ!

โซธย ๐•‹๐• ๐•กย ๐•‹๐•–๐•Ÿย ๐•‹๐•š๐••๐•“๐•š๐•ฅ๐•คย โซท โž™ 17 pounds 5 ounces โž™ 27.5 inches long โž™ only sits still for Mickey Mouse Clubhouse โž™ rather nibble on own feet vs. dinner  โž™ โ€œMr. Crazy Squawky Pantsโ€ โž™ hits fists on mouth to make funny sounds โž™ huge fan of peanut butter  โž™ loves when Mama sings โ€˜Open-Shut Themโ€™ โž™ย highly offended if binky is offeredย ย  โž™ย obsessed with banana puffsContinue reading “โž‘ย ๐— ๐—ข๐—ก๐—ง๐—›๐—ฆ!”

โ€˜223 Reminiscent Daysโ€™ with โ€œmy boy(s)โ€…

Today, you outlive your brother.  Which means: 223 days of loving you… 223 days of studying your eyes; I fixate on the faint gold ring around your dark pupil and how it dissolves into a large mass of deep crystal blue.  223 days of kissing your head; I lean in with pursed lips, simultaneously inhalingContinue reading “โ€˜223 Reminiscent Daysโ€™ with โ€œmy boy(s)โ€…”

ARTHUR IS โž MONTHS!

โซธ ๐•‹๐• ๐•ก ๐•‹๐•–๐•Ÿ ๐•‹๐•š๐••๐•“๐•š๐•ฅ๐•ค โซท โž™ 16 pounds 11 ounces โž™ 27.5 inches long โž™ two cute bottom front teeth โž™ somehow acquired nickname: โ€˜Moo Mooโ€™ โž™ โ€œMr. Loves To Shoutโ€-not just for the Bills โž™ boycotts sleep whenever possible โž™ not a fan of peas and green beans โž™ loves music; especially Big SisContinue reading “ARTHUR IS โž MONTHS!”

THEODORE NELSON BRINGS ‘CHD AWARENESS’ TO TELEVISION! ๐Ÿ“บ

Mama certainly prefers being ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ the camera verses in front of it… but Iโ€™d also climb to the top of Mount Everest if it meant sharing your story, Theodore… โ€˜CHD Awarenessโ€™ is now something I will be forever passionate about until the day I die, when I can hold my courageous heart warrior in myContinue reading “THEODORE NELSON BRINGS ‘CHD AWARENESS’ TO TELEVISION! ๐Ÿ“บ”

Merry Christmas- 2021

Tears are allowed to exist amongst happiness; when they appear, theyโ€™re just deemed โ€˜happy tearsโ€™.ย  So surely smiles are allowed to exist amongst grief; I say we just deem them โ€˜grieving smilesโ€™… These grieving smiles are certainly forced at times; yet they also originate from new perspective, and carry immense gratitude for the present day.Continue reading “Merry Christmas- 2021”

live. love. & smile.

2020, if youโ€™ve taught me anything, it is that a smile can both disguise pain and exude joy all. at. the. same. time… It is that sadness and happiness know how to coexist if youโ€™ll allow them… It is that grieving can last a lifetime, but family lasts longer; family bonds are eternal… Yes, 2020,Continue reading “live. love. & smile.”

6 MONTHS GONE

Hi Theodore,Momma here…Today, marks 6 months.Half a year since I’ve looked into those fierce eyes.I have nothing profound to say,besides “I love you more than life itself”.ย Thank you for filling my arms for 223 days.It’s your strength that has quite literally become mine.Just one thought of your courage empowers me to do absolutely anything.And itContinue reading “6 MONTHS GONE”

WE LOCKED EYES

The church doors opened, and all I saw was you. Not the friends and family gleaming on either side of the aisle, or even the photographer following us with flashing lights could distract me from your eyes. I felt my Dadโ€™s strong grip around my arm, but it was your misty eyes that remained myContinue reading “WE LOCKED EYES”

CHEEK TO CHEEK

That is how it should still be… your pudgy little cheek pressed up against mine; your wispy blonde hairs tickling my temple as I press in closer and closer to you. Some mornings when itโ€™s extra hard to catch my breath, I even find myself taking the back of my hand and pressing it upContinue reading “CHEEK TO CHEEK”

DADDY’S ARMS

Little did I know that this would be your last picture with Theodore. And the more I stare at it, the more I realize how this final moment with your son perfectly summarized your entire relationship. Theodore always felt safe in his daddy’s arms. And you, Michael Nelson, are the pillar of strength for ourContinue reading “DADDY’S ARMS”