ARTHUR IS โž“ ๐— ๐—ข๐—ก๐—ง๐—›๐—ฆ!

โซธ ๐•‹๐• ๐•ก ๐•‹๐•–๐•Ÿ ๐•‹๐•š๐••๐•“๐•š๐•ฅ๐•ค โซทโ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โž™ 18 pounds 13 ounceโž™ 28.75 inches longโž™ new words: โ€œGa-Ga!โ€ & โ€œMaaaa!โ€โž™ got 4 new teeth on top all at onceโž™ โ€œMr. Open-Mouth Slobbery Smoocherโ€โž™ smacks lips and signs for โ€œmoreโ€ foodโž™ favorite: swinging fast at the parkโž™ only drinks from special 360-rim sippy cupโž™ lowered crib since strong boyContinue reading “ARTHUR IS โž“ ๐— ๐—ข๐—ก๐—ง๐—›๐—ฆ!”

Seeing The Unseen

๐—ฆ๐—ฒ๐—ฒ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ดย ๐—ง๐—ต๐—ฒย ๐—จ๐—ป๐˜€๐—ฒ๐—ฒ๐—ป Itโ€™s such a blessing and a curse.  The hard truth is when I look at a picture of my children, I instantly see the one that is missing.  It is my broken heart that sometimes has the 20/20 vision, while my regular eyesight takes a backseat. I see the unseen. I see the empty spaceContinue reading “Seeing The Unseen”

๐—ง๐—ต๐—ฒย ๐—™๐—น๐—ฎ๐˜ย ๐—Ÿ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ฒ

๐Ÿฐ/๐Ÿต/๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฌ๐Ÿฎ๐Ÿฌ ๐—ง๐—ต๐—ฒ ๐—™๐—น๐—ฎ๐˜ ๐—Ÿ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ฒ I saw the flat line.  It was a flat line that told me your heart was finally too tired to produce another beat.  An illuminated flat line had the ability to call the attention of dozens of people within seconds; my own eyes being the first and the last to acknowledge the magnitude of itsContinue reading “๐—ง๐—ต๐—ฒย ๐—™๐—น๐—ฎ๐˜ย ๐—Ÿ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ฒ”

โž‘ย ๐— ๐—ข๐—ก๐—ง๐—›๐—ฆ!

โซธย ๐•‹๐• ๐•กย ๐•‹๐•–๐•Ÿย ๐•‹๐•š๐••๐•“๐•š๐•ฅ๐•คย โซท โž™ 17 pounds 5 ounces โž™ 27.5 inches long โž™ only sits still for Mickey Mouse Clubhouse โž™ rather nibble on own feet vs. dinner  โž™ โ€œMr. Crazy Squawky Pantsโ€ โž™ hits fists on mouth to make funny sounds โž™ huge fan of peanut butter  โž™ loves when Mama sings โ€˜Open-Shut Themโ€™ โž™ย highly offended if binky is offeredย ย  โž™ย obsessed with banana puffsContinue reading “โž‘ย ๐— ๐—ข๐—ก๐—ง๐—›๐—ฆ!”

โ€˜223 Reminiscent Daysโ€™ with โ€œmy boy(s)โ€…

Today, you outlive your brother.  Which means: 223 days of loving you… 223 days of studying your eyes; I fixate on the faint gold ring around your dark pupil and how it dissolves into a large mass of deep crystal blue.  223 days of kissing your head; I lean in with pursed lips, simultaneously inhalingContinue reading “โ€˜223 Reminiscent Daysโ€™ with โ€œmy boy(s)โ€…”

ARTHUR IS โž MONTHS!

โซธ ๐•‹๐• ๐•ก ๐•‹๐•–๐•Ÿ ๐•‹๐•š๐••๐•“๐•š๐•ฅ๐•ค โซท โž™ 16 pounds 11 ounces โž™ 27.5 inches long โž™ two cute bottom front teeth โž™ somehow acquired nickname: โ€˜Moo Mooโ€™ โž™ โ€œMr. Loves To Shoutโ€-not just for the Bills โž™ boycotts sleep whenever possible โž™ not a fan of peas and green beans โž™ loves music; especially Big SisContinue reading “ARTHUR IS โž MONTHS!”

THEODORE NELSON BRINGS ‘CHD AWARENESS’ TO TELEVISION! ๐Ÿ“บ

Mama certainly prefers being ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ the camera verses in front of it… but Iโ€™d also climb to the top of Mount Everest if it meant sharing your story, Theodore… โ€˜CHD Awarenessโ€™ is now something I will be forever passionate about until the day I die, when I can hold my courageous heart warrior in myContinue reading “THEODORE NELSON BRINGS ‘CHD AWARENESS’ TO TELEVISION! ๐Ÿ“บ”

๐—”๐—ฅ๐—ง๐—›๐—จ๐—ฅ ๐—œ๐—ฆ โž ๐— ๐—ข๐—ก๐—ง๐—›๐—ฆ!

โซธ ๐•‹๐• ๐•ก ๐•‹๐•–๐•Ÿ ๐•‹๐•š๐••๐•“๐•š๐•ฅ๐•ค โซทโ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โž™ 16 pounds 1 ounceโž™ 26.25 inches longโž™ rosey cheeks; poor teething babeโž™ sits-up unassisted for a few minutesโž™ โ€œMr. Handsome Hot Temperโ€โž™ wakes up 1-2 times a night for a snackย โž™ devours all of Mamaโ€™s homemade purรฉesโž™ favs: snowy walks & blowing raspberriesย  ย โž™ refuses the bottle and demands Mamaโž™Continue reading “๐—”๐—ฅ๐—ง๐—›๐—จ๐—ฅ ๐—œ๐—ฆ โž ๐— ๐—ข๐—ก๐—ง๐—›๐—ฆ!”

๐—”๐—ฅ๐—ง๐—›๐—จ๐—ฅ ๐—œ๐—ฆ โžŽ ๐— ๐—ข๐—ก๐—ง๐—›๐—ฆ!

โซธ ๐•‹๐• ๐•ก ๐•‹๐•–๐•Ÿ ๐•‹๐•š๐••๐•“๐•š๐•ฅ๐•ค โซทโ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โž™ 15 pounds 1 ounceโž™ 25.5 inches longโž™ reaches for anything in sight, our faces includedโž™ met Santa, but infatuated with Mrs. Clausโž™ โ€œMr. Iโ€™ll Bite Your Knucklesโ€ (if you let me)โž™ enjoyed 1st Thanksgiving at the tableโž™ sleeps through the night… when Dad is homeโž™ favorite: staring at all theContinue reading “๐—”๐—ฅ๐—ง๐—›๐—จ๐—ฅ ๐—œ๐—ฆ โžŽ ๐— ๐—ข๐—ก๐—ง๐—›๐—ฆ!”

Merry Christmas- 2021

Tears are allowed to exist amongst happiness; when they appear, theyโ€™re just deemed โ€˜happy tearsโ€™.ย  So surely smiles are allowed to exist amongst grief; I say we just deem them โ€˜grieving smilesโ€™… These grieving smiles are certainly forced at times; yet they also originate from new perspective, and carry immense gratitude for the present day.Continue reading “Merry Christmas- 2021”