1 Year In Heaven…👼

Tomorrow, April 9, 2020 – My heart broke the same day yours was made whole… And although I miss you more with every beat of my broken heart, I’d gladly give-up a piece of my heart, to know that God has replaced the missing piece of yours… I hope you know how absolutely, incredibly PERFECTContinue reading “1 Year In Heaven…👼”

A Special Gift 🐰✝️

“Theodore picked out this stuffed bunny as a special gift for you, right before he went up to heaven to live with Jesus…” That’s what we had to tell our 4-year-old three days before Easter last year. As tears welled-up in MacKenna’s eyes, she was devastated, yet grateful all at the same time. She couldn’tContinue reading “A Special Gift 🐰✝️”

live. love. & smile.

2020, if you’ve taught me anything, it is that a smile can both disguise pain and exude joy all. at. the. same. time… It is that sadness and happiness know how to coexist if you’ll allow them… It is that grieving can last a lifetime, but family lasts longer; family bonds are eternal… Yes, 2020,Continue reading “live. love. & smile.”

6 MONTHS GONE

Hi Theodore,Momma here…Today, marks 6 months.Half a year since I’ve looked into those fierce eyes.I have nothing profound to say,besides “I love you more than life itself”. Thank you for filling my arms for 223 days.It’s your strength that has quite literally become mine.Just one thought of your courage empowers me to do absolutely anything.And itContinue reading “6 MONTHS GONE”

ALIVE IN THE SHADOWS

Happy 1st Birthday, my sweet Theodore. Mommy wanted to do something extra special to honor your beautiful soul; an eternal soul that is still very much alive.  From the day you were born, it was always your soul that touched me more than your body. Even on your birthday, they whisked you away for the first openContinue reading “ALIVE IN THE SHADOWS”

CHEEK TO CHEEK

That is how it should still be… your pudgy little cheek pressed up against mine; your wispy blonde hairs tickling my temple as I press in closer and closer to you. Some mornings when it’s extra hard to catch my breath, I even find myself taking the back of my hand and pressing it upContinue reading “CHEEK TO CHEEK”

DADDY’S ARMS

Little did I know that this would be your last picture with Theodore. And the more I stare at it, the more I realize how this final moment with your son perfectly summarized your entire relationship. Theodore always felt safe in his daddy’s arms. And you, Michael Nelson, are the pillar of strength for ourContinue reading “DADDY’S ARMS”

Surprise Tribute From Community Honoring Theodore R. Nelson

This global pandemic has got nothin’ on the ‘Teddy Bear Warrior’ community! I’m still speechless from this complete SURPRISE… & I’m still having a very hard time formulating sentences to express what is in my heart; my heart is simply in overload… My heart misses Theodore like crazy.My heart loves you all like crazy. So,Continue reading “Surprise Tribute From Community Honoring Theodore R. Nelson”

3/24/20 -OPEN HEART SURGERY #3

Today we switch lanes on the hi-way.  We’re entering a whole new phase of this journey with Theodore; I just pray that we’re veering into the ‘express lane’ with a straight shot home from here… Although, the next leg of this trip hasn’t yet begun, this Momma is already feeling a little “car sick”.  TravelingContinue reading “3/24/20 -OPEN HEART SURGERY #3”

🎉❗️200 DAYS IN THE CICU❗️🎉

Our ‘Mr. Theodorable’ turned 200 days old this past Tuesday and still continues to fight hard for life with every determined breath he takes! (…not to mention, he makes me smile about 200 times per day, too! ) I have learned a lot in 200 days… I have learned that one person’s ‘inconvenience’ can be anotherContinue reading “🎉❗️200 DAYS IN THE CICU❗️🎉”