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A Special Gift 🐰✝️

“Theodore picked out this stuffed bunny as a special gift for you, right before he went up to heaven to live with Jesus…” That’s what we had to tell our 4-year-old three days before Easter last year. As tears welled-up in MacKenna’s eyes, she was devastated, yet grateful all at the same time. She couldn’tContinue reading “A Special Gift 🐰✝️”

live. love. & smile.

2020, if you’ve taught me anything, it is that a smile can both disguise pain and exude joy all. at. the. same. time… It is that sadness and happiness know how to coexist if you’ll allow them… It is that grieving can last a lifetime, but family lasts longer; family bonds are eternal… Yes, 2020,Continue reading “live. love. & smile.”

6 MONTHS GONE

Hi Theodore,Momma here…Today, marks 6 months.Half a year since I’ve looked into those fierce eyes.I have nothing profound to say,besides “I love you more than life itself”. Thank you for filling my arms for 223 days.It’s your strength that has quite literally become mine.Just one thought of your courage empowers me to do absolutely anything.And itContinue reading “6 MONTHS GONE”

ALIVE IN THE SHADOWS

Happy 1st Birthday, my sweet Theodore. Mommy wanted to do something extra special to honor your beautiful soul; an eternal soul that is still very much alive. From the day you were born, it was always your soul that touched me more than your body. Even on your birthday, they whisked you away for the first openContinue reading “ALIVE IN THE SHADOWS”

CHEEK TO CHEEK

That is how it should still be… your pudgy little cheek pressed up against mine; your wispy blonde hairs tickling my temple as I press in closer and closer to you. Some mornings when it’s extra hard to catch my breath, I even find myself taking the back of my hand and pressing it upContinue reading “CHEEK TO CHEEK”

DADDY’S ARMS

Little did I know that this would be your last picture with Theodore. And the more I stare at it, the more I realize how this final moment with your son perfectly summarized your entire relationship. Theodore always felt safe in his daddy’s arms. And you, Michael Nelson, are the pillar of strength for ourContinue reading “DADDY’S ARMS”

FORTIFIED. 🥛

All 1,248 ounces were fortified with an extremely large dose of love… When you fortify, you add an element of ‘value’ to something that could benefit from being strengthened. And there’s no doubt that Theodore Nelson was born a ‘fortifier’; his tenacity could invigorate anyone and enhance their lives for the better. He was aContinue reading “FORTIFIED. 🥛”

•• REALITY ••

MK insisted on taking her little brother for a drive today. Never in my wildest dreams did I think ‘playtime’ would look like this… but ‘this’ is our reality. And that’s the thing about ‘reality’ – you can’t hide from it. You can either run from reality, or choose to accept it. Although, trying toContinue reading “•• REALITY ••”

TURNING PAIN INTO PURPOSE 👇

It has been one month since I’ve held my beautiful baby boy… and within those painful 30 days, besides feeling every single emotion known to man, coupled with periods of complete numbness, I’ve realized this: it’s not about “learning to get over it”, it’s about “learning to live through it”… and for me, that includesContinue reading “TURNING PAIN INTO PURPOSE 👇”

Surprise Tribute From Community Honoring Theodore R. Nelson

We laid our cherished Theodore Richard Nelson to rest on Tuesday, April 14th, 2020. This global pandemic has got nothin’ on the ‘Teddy Bear Warrior’ community! I’m still speechless from this complete SURPRISE… & I’m still having a very hard time formulating sentences to express what is in my heart; my heart is simply inContinue reading “Surprise Tribute From Community Honoring Theodore R. Nelson”