𝗛𝗮𝗽𝗽𝘆 𝟰𝘁𝗵 𝗕𝗶𝗿𝘁𝗵𝗱𝗮𝘆 

𝗧𝗵𝗲𝗼𝗱𝗼𝗿𝗲 

August 30, 2023

Here I am again at the water’s edge.  I find myself chasing the coast line to feel closer to you. You seem bigger here; maybe because I feel so minuscule compared to the enormous crashing waves at my feet. The fierce waters roar, yet somehow their tonic pulse is calming to my soul. It’s all so fascinating; the stillness and serenity of a single moon that can pull an entire ocean from shore to shore. It reminds me of your quiet little steadfast self, Theodore, who had the ability to change our entire world. 

You brought down a big thick cloud from Heaven this morning; your sister and I walked the beach at sunrise to soak-in the splendor. For a short moment, I felt like I was transported to exactly where we’ll meet again one day. The atmosphere was so thick, so dense, and so tangible; if I squinted long enough, it was like I could make-out your four-year old shadow running right towards me. I wanted to fall to my knees and welcome you into my arms because the rhythm of the ocean was so profound it felt like your heart beating right against my chest anyway. 

I still close my eyes and stop to think of what you would look like at four years old. I even wrap my arms around your siblings, and for a few seconds, pretend it’s you.  My sadness because of your absence will forever be, but we’ve learned to live for the ‘happy little moments’ in this family.  

You have gifted us with the ability to realize that life does not have to be perfect to be beautiful, and for that we’re forever grateful.  I love you, Theodore Richard Nelson, with every beat of my heart. 

Alexandria

… join me by #FallingRightSideUp 👆🏼

when life gets turned upside down 👇🏼