Yesterday marked 14 years together; 7 of which we’ve been married! October 28th has always held a special place in my heart because it was the day where it all began. Our wedding anniversary on July 28th would not exist if we didn’t take the chance on each other 14 years ago on October 28th! So in my book, October 28th wins; it’s symbolic of our initial ‘leap of faith’. We were two young kids who barely knew each other, yet took a leap of faith into the ‘unknown’ because we saw the potential for something good.
Can you think back to the first time you held hands with your “other half”? I instantly grin when I reminisce about about the first couple times Michael grabbed my hand. It was a slow process. We’d be at the movie theater and more times than not, I could not even tell you the movie title because I was so enthralled with the movement of Michael’s hand towards mine. I sit here now and laugh at what a big deal “hand-holding” was for us back then… By the time the previews ended, Michael was already more than half way across my arm rest; his shoulder slightly grazing mine. Out of the corner of my eye, I’d watch his hand slowly creep towards my hand, pretending not to notice the little advances he’d make when the movie was full of action. Of course I’d prop my hand in the most optimal “available position”; I’d sit there and patiently wait, craving his hand to move faster… It’s the anticipation that intensifies the enjoyment. The sides of our pinky fingers would actually touch for a few minutes before we both gave in; pretending to readjust in our seats and then casually knock our hands together. At that moment, somehow our fingers would magically intertwine; our hands finally falling still in contentment, but my blood rushing faster than ever through my veins. It’s always a “good sign” if a person touches your hand and it immediately wakes up all the butterflies in your stomach…
Just like the gradual process of “first-time hand-holding”, we are on a slow and steady journey with our son. Of course 14 years ago, I would have never thought we’d now be holding hands in a children’s hospital 4 hours away from home… but just like we did back on October 28th, 2005, we took a leap of faith into the ‘unknown’ with Theodore because we saw the potential for something good. Although holding Michael’s hand back in the movie theater years ago flew me to cloud nine, nothing compares to the comfort from holding his hand through the fight for our son’s life. I am beyond thankful that God has strengthened our grip during this storm. Even through the torrential rain and hurricane winds, our fingers have remained laced together; God being the “double-knot” that keeps us from coming undone. Today, I can still rest easy knowing that Michael will always hold my hand, and that God will always hold our future. He has not failed us yet.
“You and me together, we can do anything” …while hand-in-hand.
-️ Momma Bear, Praying Isaiah 53:5
MY TEDDY BEAR PRAYER:
Please continue to pray with us for Theodore’s overall slow and steady progress. He had his oxygen levels slightly increased today due to come chest retractions overnight. His white blood cell count has been trending lower over the past couple days, so we’re believing God to protect him against ALL infections and viruses. Isaiah 54:17 – no weapon formed against Theodore Richard Nelson will prosper in Jesus Name. My “Momma Heart” ultimately prays that Theodore will eventually feel just as comfy, snugly, and safe as he did inside of my stomach in this picture. A newborn’s system already has to make drastic adjustments right after birth so the many added obstacles my ‘Teddy Bear’ has been forced to endure is just unthinkable. I could not be more proud to be his Mother and will pray for his miracle every single day without ceasing. Thank you for joining with me in prayer; praying for a miracle, for my little miracle! ❤