August 30, 2019
It was the day that you, my breathtakingly beautiful baby, redefined the meaning of my entire life. It was a day that your perfect self entered our world through so many imperfect adversities. And still, somehow, Mama finds it more difficult to manage the raw emotion surrounding the day that you entered our lives verses the day you left our lives…
You see, your birthday is an āanniversaryā that Iāve wanted to celebrate so badly, but never got toā¦ Whereas, the day you passed away is an āanniversaryā that I never wanted to begin with, but got anywayā¦
Itās not very profound, but itās the only āsmall puzzle pieceā that Iāve āresolvedā after your 1st, 2nd, and now 3rd Birthday: In the end, I guess it āfeels betterā to get what you do not want, than to deeply crave what you cannot haveā¦
Mama never wished to see you go, but that day passes with slightly more āeaseā than this annual milestone, where every fiber in my body forever yearns to recognize your growth.
Happy 3rd Birthday, my sweet Theodore; and until next year comes along, Iāll close my eyes and imagine your pudgy little toddler lips smoochinā me backā¦ I love you.Ā
šAlexandria
… join me by #FallingRightSideUpĀ šš¼
when life gets turned upside down šš¼
FALLING RIGHT SIDE UP 
ā¤ļø I canāt imagine what you are going through;
I can only hold you up in my prayers for comfort and support.
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May God graciously give you and the family peace and strength this day and througout the year, when you think of your warrior Theo. I know God will continue to use you,Alex and family, to minister to other’s who have lost a child. You will leave a legacy behind in honor of Theo, and be together for enternity with him in heaven.
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